I need a good night's sleep ...

Dear Blog,

I thought I might reach out to you and ask you for some needed sleep. Ever since I was diagnosed with this monster, I haven't had a good night sleep. In fact, I haven't had a complete 8 hour period of sleep in 2007! That is a long time.

I am not sure why I am having this trouble but I am sure I can come up with a few things ...

For example, I had a major surgery and I want to discount the severity of this event. It is easier to face the fear (of the known and unknown) if I minimize the fact that I was cut open and I had a number of hands were inside my belly. My prostate was removed and my "plumbing" was cut apart and then reattached. I had to wear a catheter, I am wearing diapers, and I can't "fly a flag". Now have to decide whether or not to proceed with radiation therapy. On top of this, "A" and I had to sell some real estate and my grandkids will be leaving us in less than 2 weeks. I am moving back to Saskatchewan to a job I that I don't have any details on (yet) and to a housing market that has gone crazy in the past few months. And these are just a few of my least favorite things!

Dear Blog ... I feel better already. It does look like I have a few issues on my plate and it helps getting this information down on paper (so to speak). If I was counselling a friend, I would tell him that there are a lot of things going on in my life and it might be normal not to sleep well.

The question is, what am I going to do about all this? In the past, I would Pray for guidance and direction. I would look to see how I can become proactive. Steven Covey's Seven Habits of Highly Effective People are a great way of getting out of a funk. They remind me of the 12 Steps of AA. Covey's first habit is "Be Proactive". In a sense, this habit is what I am doing now; I am trying to shed the fear, worry and frustration of not sleeping. By putting my thoughts down on paper, I am giving my brain a break. I can put the issues down on paper and stop worrying. If I want to worry again (about these same issues), I can just go back to you, Dear Blog, and put these thoughts back in my brain. Sounds crazy but it seems to be working ... I am getting sleepy once again ... I will post this and try and get some shut eye.

Thanks for listening Dear Blog ...

Gido

P.S. My thoughts go out to my friends in Newfoundland who just lost their Nan (Mom and Grandmother).