Back to Reality!

This past week has been a good one. I spent the week in Ottawa with my daughter, her husband and my grandson. This time was special. One advantage when faced with a life threatening disease is that I have the opportunity and awareness to slow down and force myself into enjoying "time and space". For example, I has some of the best 15 to 20 minutes of the week, just riding the bus with my daughter. I had a meeting to go to in downtown Ottawa and I was planning on driving to the meeting, however, Winter said I should catch the bus ... it is cheaper, quicker and better for the environment. Made sense, so I caught the bus.

I didn't realize how proud I am of this young lady. She has grown into a very beautiful young women who is definitely enjoying her life with her great husband and her son. I liked sitting beside her and just looking at her. I am definitely coming to realize and truly accepting that my children and their children are my legacies in this world and not necessarily the "other stuff" I seem to think is important.

When we got off the bus in downtown Ottawa, she walked me to Sparks Street, showed me were her work was and pointed me in the direction to walk. Before we left, we hugged. I also took this special occasion to say once again that "I loved her". My daughter didn't talk about the "monster" while I was in Ottawa with me. She just asked how I was feeling and I was feeling just great. I sensed she was scared a bit, so saying I loved her was important to me.

The week also included the installation of a new sliding door, which I enjoyed working with my son-in-law and enjoying my grandson's first birthday on April 4th. I love both of them! We laughed a lot and took pictures. We also did a great job on installing that door. I want to see Boh grow up and am hoping God will give me lots of time.

"A", I also enjoyed spending time with you. I really enjoyed out lunch meetings. This is another blessing for me during this scary time. I am spending more time with "A" than I have in the past 3 1/2 years in Nova Scotia. I certainly don't like the situation I am in and nobody said I had to like it ... maybe I am getting to acceptance?

So back to reality ... this Wednesday will be a interesting day. I get to see my Urologist and his colleague, another Urologist. I am hoping to get information on the test results and discuss treatment options. I sure hope this monster is contained!