"Mans Search for Meaning"

Today was a very good day in Regina.

I had opportunity to be with family and friends and also go to a couple of my 12 steps meetings. I feel lucky to have the support of these people, especially my old friends from the Fellowship Group. This is a group of people who "say it like it is" but also say truthful things with kindness and understanding. We laughed together and also cried together this morning. I found out another good friend of mine just found out he has also prostrate cancer. He will be going for radiation treatment soon. His attitude was priceless; he stopped feeling sorry for himself. He is grateful for the fact he was given a over 20 years of sobriety and this is just another challenge. It also gives him an valid excuse ... "Not tonight honey, I have a headache". I guess I will be able to use that one now.

I also spent some time with another friend. We talked about the future and what we wanted to experience before we die. I told DP that I wanted to live long enough to present one of my grand kids an "Iron Ring". This would be special. DP then told me I should tell the "monster" that I am not ready to give in ... I have a mission to complete.

This reminded me of a book I once read. It was written by Viktor Frankl and is called "Man's Search for Meaning" and was a very powerful book. Mr. Frankl was in a WWII Concentration Camp. He needed a reason to survive the torture and death camp. When he found a future dream that was so important to live for, he found the courage and internal strength to survive the brutality of everyday life. He found his "meaning". Maybe I have found my :meaning"? The monster will have to wait for a while; 15-20 years to be exact. That's when Dustin should be finishing university and hopefully he will be completing an engineering degree.

So to the monster: "Sorry, you will have to wait a while before you take me. I will be having someone take you out soon. April 25th to be exact." Don't know if this outcome will come true; only God knows that. I pray for the Acceptance of the outcome.