Two More Sleeps ...

As I woke up this morning, I realized that I have 2 more sleeps before I get to go the hospital for my surgery to remove the monster. I am glad this is happening so quickly. The waiting is painful. My mind plays games with me and I can have a "big time" meeting in my head. At this meeting I go over the good, the bad and the ugly of my situation many times and I can play through many different scenarios. It can get complicated very fast.

I am fortunate I have kept busy these past few weeks. Everything seemed to fall into place as best it could. Since I found out I had the monster on March 12, I seemed to get into action with a number of medical tests and procedures. I completed a bone scan, a CT Scan, did a lot of blood work, seen a hematologist, had several meetings with my Urologists in Halifax and family physician and I even arranged a second medical opinion with a Urologist in Regina. All this resulted in a 5 hour pre-operation session last week. This was all the work related to dealing with the monster.

In between all this, I was able to go to (drive) Ottawa during Easter week and celebrate my grandson's first birthday and install a new sliding patio door for my son-in-law and daughter. I also had a chance to visit the War Museum in Ottawa and I need to go back because I did not see it all. As if this was not enough, I took a drive with my son across most of Canada (Dartmouth to Regina) and visited my sister and AA friends. This was an excellent trip. To top this off, I just finished a busy weekend and installed 4 new high efficient windows. I thought I would do this later this year however, it would be difficult with my upcoming surgery.

Thank God for this activity. To top this off, I was reminded at my Sunday 12 step meeting that I committed to speak at tonight's meeting. What a gift ... really. I get to publicly tell my story and express my gratitude for sobriety and also share my fears. I might even cry in public ... wouldn't that be nice. God please allow me to speak freely and truthfully at this meeting and I pray my words can be of assistance to someone at this meeting.

More tomorrow ...