The move has begun ...

Since my last entry, I have been to Saskatchewan and back. I have looked at several houses and reconnected to old friends. It was a great trip and I am looking forward to another chapter in my life.

I am not sure why, but it seems that every 4 years has some major changes in my life. I mean major. This year, 2007, I find myself moving back to Saskatchewan, fighting the monster and fighting for my life. In 2003, I moved to Nova Scotia. But just 6 weeks before the move, both Mom and Dad passed away. This was devastating! Then in 1999, I had to deal with a family member's addiction and I had to spend more time in a treatment centre.

When I was in Regina last week, I met with my friend DP and he certainly can put things into perspective for me. I have to accept people, places and things. Sometimes I have to forgive as well. I am living in God's world, the best strategy for me is to "practice" acceptance. I use the word "practice" deliberately because I am one of those individuals that has to "act" my way into right thinking and not "think" my way into right living. This sounds confusing to me at times but I know that when I meet with trusted individuals, share honestly about my "feelings" and attend my 12 meetings, I begin to feel better (emotionally and spiritually) and my thinking begins to improve. My resentments begin to disappear. I have to remember that for an alcoholic like me, resentments are the number one offenders. The can do the most damage to my attitude and to my thinking. I seem to forget that "I am" a big part in my life. I cause my own problems. It is too easy to point fingers but someone once told me not to point because when I do, there are usually 3 fingers pointing back. I don't believe this sometimes, but it is true. Once again, I have to practice acceptance. It is the key to my sobriety, to my spiritual health and to my physical well being.

I miss my grandkids already. All the more reason to hurry up and wait for the move back in November.