Yesterday was overwhelming. Nothing special, just over whelming; all my emotions just gathered together and seemed to attack me. It was on big stress ball. Yesterday was the last day of my immediate family's extended visit to Nova Scotia. They arrived exactly 2 years ago and so much has happened. Since July 2005, we have been fortuate to have grown our family by 2 young people and had some great experiences. But all good things do come to an end.
I think all my issues have added together and caused an overwhelming sense of powerlessness. I walked around the Lake twice, I met with my friend JC, I attended my 12 step meeting and we discussed the "solution to alcoholism". The afternoon continued with a phone call from the Cancer Clinic asking me if I decided if I wanted radiation therapy and when I tried to watch DVD to get some shut eye, I found the DVD missing. This simple issue, a misplaced DVD, resulted in me breaking down and crying like a baby. It was good; maybe it is part of the continuing process of total , absolute surrender. I am control of nothing and need to surrender the next few months to God as I Understand Him/Her. I found myself once again saying the Serenity Prayer.
It is 4:00 AM and we are getting ready to take the return trip to Saskatchewan via Edmonton. Two adults, 3 kids, two cats and a lot of boxes. It will be a long day.
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