Acceptance doesn't mean I have to like it!

I am starting to get accustom to my routine. Every hour or so I need to do my business in the bathroom and change. I think I moving into the acceptance mode of my situation. I have learned from my recovering 12 Step Program friends that "Acceptance does not mean I have to like the situation I am in". When I heard this jewel, it was quite a revelation for me . I used to think that accepting a situation means I have to like it or be OK with it. Not so.

Yesterday I seen my family doctor and I was able to get a detailed report of the surgery I experienced on April 25. There were 3 pages of notes that provided a "blow by blow" of the event. I read the report a couple of times and to tell you the truth it scared me! However, I am glad I seen this report; somehow seeing my situation on paper provides a further degree of closure. I seen phases like "high-risk adenocarcinoma of the prostate", "He is aware that due to the high-risk disease", "we are not going to perform nerve sparing prostateomy", "we actually performed an extra radical prostatectomy", "we experienced significant amount of bleeding", "blood loss 1500 ml" and "there were no complications with this procedure".

The above notes reminded me how lucky I am. Although I would have preferred not to have gone through this operation, I am grateful I have a chance to experience life for a few more years. Thanks to all the skilled individuals who were able to stop the blood loss and perform the "extra radical" removal of the monster!