TimE to Reflect ...

I am not sure what is happening; maybe a flu. This morning I feel awful. My belly hurts, my back hurts, my bones hurts and I feel depressed. Is this the flu from my grandson! I will get even on the weekend! No more sharing drinks from my bottle.

I had the opportunity to go the office yesterday and it was nice to see everyone. I was amazed how fast I could get emotionally attached to work again and several times I knew I had to stay reserved with my comments. My opinions are always welcome however it is not my place at this time to get engaged in difficult decision making. This is hard to do and I THINK I am fighting another addiction ... a workaholic syndrome.

When I was in treatment a number of years ago at Indian Head we were given lots of information on human relations, interactions and addiction issues. One that always stood out for me was the fact that an addictive personality type usually switches addictions when faced with changing his or her primary addiction. I could have for example have switched from alcohol to drugs (legal or illegal), to gambling or to work. I know I haven't done the first three for 16 plus years, but I am wondering about work. I loved work and I enjoy the people that I work with. In fact there are several I am very close to; we work well together and that type of relationship is powerful.

This is one advantage the monster has given me ... time to reflect about my life, my likes and dislikes and my priorities. I know my primary problem ... alcohol. If I don't watch out about this one, all hell will break loose; that is a given. But what are my second and third priorities and how should I manage these? What an opportunity!