OK ... this is not fun anymore!

I think I was in a bit of a state of denial regarding the seriousness of my monster removal procedure. Last night was not a lot of fun. Having to move around in bed with a catheter is a pain in the "you know where" and getting in an out of bed is a bit more complicated. Also going to the bathroom almost needs it own standard operating procedure manual. There is a systematic approach that must be followed or odd things happen. I will keep these details to myself for now as I am still trying to work out this routine at home. I told "A" that I can't wait to go to diapers and get rid of the extra piping and collection system that I currently have. At least I will have something in common with 3 of my grand kids.

The one good thing about my current situation is that I don't feel guilty anymore about not being at work. I am not sure I blogged this point in the past. Although I knew I had a major illness to deal with, I felt physically just fine and as a result I thought I was playing hooky from work. I want to make it clear that this feeling was my issue. At no point did my employer suggest I should be coming to work or doing work from home. The people I work with and for were completely supportive of my recovery strategy. I am very grateful for this. I work for one of the best companies in Canada.

Thank God I was so busy with projects outside of work. I had a chance to do some good things for my kids and with "A". When I look back on 2007, I am sure the period between March 12 (when I was told I have cancer) to April 25 (the day the monster was removed), I will count more good days than bad days.

Today I will try and take a walk around the block to get some fresh Maritime air. I will also try and sneak in some shower time without "A" being too concerned. She worries too much. I am hoping the days will begin to get easier soon. Time will tell. More tomorrow.